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[haveyourmoments]

I’m on my way to Jabba’s palace on Tatooine, dressed in a godforsaken dead bounty hunter’s suit, complete with a stifling mask that makes me feel like I might actually faint. Or maybe that’s just the smell of old alcohol that came with the suit. At any rate, I’m petrified, not at all convinced that Han has survived the carbon freezing, especially not after all this time.

I walk inside the palace, my fingertips grazing over the thermal detenator in my pocket, holding Chewie’s leash with my other hand, and thinking that at least if Han is dead, I can wind up with him in the end.

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[haveyourmoments]

I raise my eyebrow, laughing softly. “Oh? Is there something specific you’d like to be witnessing right now?”

[going_solo]

“I mean, yes,” I say, with a breath of a laugh. “But your eyes more than anything.”

[haveyourmoments]

I roll my eyes, crossing my legs as I sit across from him on the bed. “You’re a mess,” I say fondly.

[going_solo]

“I am a lot of things right now,” I laugh nervously.

[haveyourmoments]

“Like what?” I ask curiously, leaning into him.

[going_solo]

“Well, blind, for one,” he says. “But also relieved, because you’re here.”

[haveyourmoments]

“Are you…I mean, I guess you didn’t really miss me, hmm?” I ask, mostly thinking out loud. “But I missed you.”

[going_solo]

“I missed you in my bones,” I say softly. “I can feel it… the absence.”

[haveyourmoments]

“You can?” I ask, intrigued. “I was worried that, oh I don’t know, I guess I just thought this might be one-sided.”

[going_solo]

“I can’t explain it,” I say. “I just… know that I feel it.”

[haveyourmoments]

I nod, chewing at my bottom lip for a moment before I speak again. “I guess what I’m asking is…am I over exaggerating our relationship in my head?”

[going_solo]

“What? No. Leia, I feel… very strongly about you, about us,” I tell her.

[haveyourmoments]

“Good,” I say after a long moment, shifting now to lay alongside him now, hesitantly resting my head on his shoulder.

[going_solo]

I hesitate, because I really can’t see, but eventually end up stroking her hair softly. “I’m sorry I – I’m sorry I wasn’t around.”

[haveyourmoments]

“There’s nothing to apologize for, Han,” I say. “It wasn’t your fault.”

[going_solo]

“Everything feels like my fault these days,” I say with a wry little smile.

[haveyourmoments]

“You got thrown into a carbon freeze by a Sith Lord, I’d hardly call that your fault, Han,” I say dryly.

[going_solo]

“It’s all about perspective, princess,” I say, smiling.

[haveyourmoments]

“Do you want it to be your fault?” I ask, laughing gently as I cup his face.

[going_solo]

“No, I just… I feel like brought a lot of trouble to your life, Leia,” I say, leaning into her touch.

[haveyourmoments]

I let out little snort of very un-Princesslike laughter as I look at him. “Surely you can’t be serious, Han.”

[going_solo]

“Well you didn’t have to worry about rescuing me before, did you?”

[haveyourmoments]

“You rescued me before you knew me!” I say. There was never a question in my mind that I wouldn’t do everything I could to find him.

[going_solo]

“Well, that’s true,” he says, then shakes his head. “I’m not thinking straight.”

[haveyourmoments]

“Han, you are…you are the only person who cares enough to chase me down frozen hallways, to drag me to safety when I’m too busy being stubborn to notice the risk, to call me out when I’m being a brat. You are my peace.”